Truth is not only
violated by falsehood;
it may be equally
outraged by silence.
I was born into a large Mormon family and was nurtured in Mormonism from my earliest years. It was all I knew. The LDS church begins their indoctrination as soon as children are old enough to talk properly. So I grew up convinced that they were that they were “the only true church.” At their fast and testimony meetings I stood up along with the rest of the branch members and bore my testimony to this fact.
We mixed only in Mormon circles. Nobody had ever tried to turn me against my beliefs and I had never seen or read any anti-Mormon literature. But as I matured into adulthood I began to notice contradictions between teachings in the Book of Mormon and those in Doctrine & Covenants and the Pearl of Great Price; including some on deity. This meant that if the Book of Mormon was accurate then their other scriptures must be wrong, or vice verse. There were also other problems. The excuses they offered were not convincing. Taking everything into account, Mormonism just didn’t add up. I came to the conclusion that it was a deception.
The LDS keeps careful tabs on its members. And they are family oriented. So when I stopped attending meetings they contacted my family. My father warned me that the day would come when I would get down on my knees and beg God to forgive me for leaving “the only true church.” And the Branch President ’phoned me personally, threatening that unless I began attending their meetings again, they would summon me to appear before their church court.
Mormon indoctrination is both thorough and effective. Their teaching that Christianity is an abomination in the sight of God and that the Bible had been corrupted, led me to conclude that if Mormonism was wrong then Christianity must be even more so. So after I left the LDS I carefully avoided having anything to do with either the Bible or any of the Christian churches. (This type of twisted reasoning is fairly common with ex-Mormons.)
Over the next twenty years or so, I looked into eastern mysticism, rosicrucianism, spiritualism, humanism and a lot of other isms, as well as transcendental meditation, yoga and the like. And I read every book on spiritual thought or religion I could lay my hands on, except of course those that were Christian. But none of them seemed as though they were on the right track.
Then a previously unbelieving acquaintance shared with me how her recent Christian conversion had changed her life. We began reading the Bible together for half an hour each morning. But because of Mormon indoctrination, it was rather like trying to find my way out of a maze in the dark. Without being aware of it I had been reading the Bible with a jaundiced eye, subconsciously ignoring or even changing scriptures that I had been taught were wrong. But eventually I realized what the problem was. And I made a conscious decision that from that moment on I would accept what the Bible said as being the truth. This led to a breakthrough. And that’s when Mormon indoctrination lost its hold on me.
Not long after that I trusted in Christ for salvation. I also prayed that God would help me to understand the Bible. And He answered that prayer. It was as though all the lights had been switched on. Its teachings became so meaningful and I developed such a hunger for the Word of God that I could hardly bear to put it down. So I carried it around with me from room to room as I did the housework. I also bought a little pocket Bible so that I could take it along with me in my handbag, whenever I went out. And everything changed. Nothing in my life has been the same since.
My biggest regret since leaving the LDS is that I had to wait so long to come to know the true, biblical Jesus Christ and to experience the wonder of His salvation. I am not proud of the fact that there have been times when I have let Him down. But He has never ever let me down. He has guided and encouraged me in my Christian walk, through thick and thin. And He has filled my heart with praise and gratitude, even in my darkest hours. He has also provided for my every need. I will never stop thanking Him for what He has done and is still doing in my life.
Most of all I am grateful to Him for suffering and dying for me, in my place, so that I could be set free from the guilt and condemnation that I had been carrying. When I die I will go to be with Him forever, and I’ll have all eternity to sing His praises.
Rather than asking God to forgive me for leaving the LDS church, I thank Him from the bottom of my heart for bringing me out of it, for keeping His hand on me during all those long years of seeking; and for leading me to true salvation in the Lord Jesus Christ.
Many of those who are dearest to me are Mormons. My heart aches for them, because I know how sincere they are and how hard they try to live worthy lives. But only Christ is worthy. And only He can save us from the consequences and the power of sin. My prayer is that they will come to trust in Him alone so that they too can experience the wonder and the joy of His salvation.
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